Friday, June 29, 2012

Speed Bump

Julie is not doing as well as she has been. Her O2 sats are down from the high 90's to the low 90's and even the upper 80's. This has occurred just over the past 2 weeks and we suspect its either from a spider bite on her hand, or a virus she got from the boys. Interestingly enough, I'm posting when I am apprehensive about Julie's future. It seems to be that way; every time things get questionable, I post on the blog. Its sort of therapeutic, especially since I can see how many are concerned for her welfare.

We have been so busy with life; trips, golf, soccer games, hiking, my career, Julie's zumba class, swimming etc. Life, for a time has seemed to go on, and it has been wonderful. My only hope and prayer is that my intuition about Julie is still correct. I am reminded of a talk by Jeffery R Holland on hope; "If it was right when you prayed about it, it is right now."  Ironically I am glad we go through this type of thing in life. It keeps me grounded, remembering what is most important, and ultimately drawing Julie and I to God. He is what brings peace and direction in times of trial. Almost instantly, endeavors like staying fit, making and saving more money, or making that next improvement to our home take a far back seat in our minds. Spending even more time together comes back to the front and I wonder how it settled behind anything.

The psychological drain this puts on Julie is enough to make your stomach turn. All the hopes and dreams she has as a mother and a woman come into question. I can only imagine the emotional roller coaster she has been on over the past decade. She rarely cries, only when she is scared, and that was Wednesday morning as she dropped me off at the airport for work and headed to the U for testing. It is brutal that I couldn't be up there with her this time, but that is life isn't it? I will keep you posted.