Julie is not doing as well as she has been. Her O2 sats are down from
the high 90's to the low 90's and even the upper 80's. This has occurred
just over the past 2 weeks and we suspect its either from a spider bite
on her hand, or a virus she got from the boys. Interestingly enough,
I'm posting when I am apprehensive about Julie's future. It seems to be
that way; every time things get questionable, I post on the blog. Its
sort of therapeutic, especially since I can see how many are concerned
for her welfare.
We have been so busy with life; trips, golf, soccer
games, hiking, my career, Julie's zumba class, swimming etc. Life, for a
time has seemed to go on, and it has been wonderful. My only hope and
prayer is that my intuition about Julie is still correct. I am reminded
of a talk by Jeffery R Holland on hope; "If it was right when you prayed
about it, it is right now." Ironically I am glad we go through this
type of thing in life. It keeps me grounded, remembering what is most
important, and ultimately drawing Julie and I to God. He is what brings
peace and direction in times of trial. Almost instantly, endeavors
like staying fit, making and saving more money, or making that next
improvement to our home take a far back seat in our minds. Spending even
more time together comes back to the front and I wonder how it settled
behind anything.
The psychological drain this puts on Julie is
enough to make your stomach turn. All the hopes and dreams she has as a
mother and a woman come into question. I can only imagine the emotional
roller coaster she has been on over the past decade. She rarely cries,
only when she is scared, and that was Wednesday morning as she dropped me off at
the airport for work and headed to the U for testing. It is brutal that I couldn't be up there with her this time, but that is life isn't it? I will
keep you posted.
You guys are in my prayers. . .post transplant life isn't "easier" in the fact that there are so many unknowns and our health can change so quickly. I hope they can get the drop in her O2 sats figured out & fix the cause.
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